Eliza: Musings on a Rainy Day
I seem to be at a loss this weekend. Emotions are surfacing, whether for clearing or not, I can’t tell. I experienced a great sense of disappointment in the reception of my last blog post (What is Happening to Our Weather?) which probably doesn’t have anything to do about other people, but a lot about how I view myself.
It would appear that very deeply suppressed feelings of self-loathing, sense of isolation and betrayal are all coming to the surface. Some of these emotions stem from childhood experiences of not feeling loved by my parents, misunderstood by my peers and longing for something undefinable that I was missing.
Yes, it is difficult to sit with this plethora of uncomfortable sensations and old memories, yet sit with them I will, allow them to be acknowledged and released.
