Today I felt frustrated. I felt clumsy and knocked things down every time I started to do something. So I turned inside and looked at my self. I could not find what I wanted to do. Then I realized that I was thinking too much about what others wanted and what I was supposed to do to make them happy. I wanted to help others with their problems and my heart was in pain because I couldn’t think clearly and do something useful for them. I knew I had to let go of these feelings. They were pouring out of my heart in the same way as the glass of water had spilled onto the table after I knocked it over.
As I let go, the emotions poured out more freely and I had an insight. It just flashed into my consciousness with a burst of inspiration. I was so concerned with what the world expected of me that I forgot to tune in and see what made me happy. There was no inspiration coming from my heart. There was only the imaginary push from others around me to do something that would change their life and not my own. I had forgotten the basic principle of happiness that tells me to be more mindful of what I really want deep down inside of me. The solution was very simple: tune in to what moved my heart and just follow the energy as I set it free to express what I really wanted for my self.
